Last Christmas my niece Jean and family gave me a couple of tablets to use for writing my stories and, sadly, they have not gotten used. Oh, I've been journaling and writing "morning pages" as suggested by the book "The Artist's Way" but for whatever reason, I have not written anything for sharing - until this morning.
I sat down at my desk as I often do, after I play with my cats and give them their breakfast. But instead of my usual notebook, I opened a tablet and started, not sure what would come out - my history or family stories or random thoughts and ideas.
What do I want to be now that I'm grown up? I mean I wasn't really clear when I was a kid about what I wanted to do, and now that I've turned seventy I still don't know exactly what I want for my life - the who with or where or how I would like to be living, other than when I'm out delivering auto parts, I sing "I want to be retired" to that old Ramones tune. I have yet to define what retirement should look like.
Anyway, I have drifted along over the years with whatever presented itself to me - school, career, jobs, marriages, friendships, housing, travels - all constant changes - over fifty years of being grown up and life has continued to unfold. One door closes and another one opens, and this morning the song Willin' keeps playing in my mind. Maybe my next road trip will take me from Tucson to Tucumcari, or maybe it's just about being open and willing and moving.
Yesterday the President announced that the CDC suggests that the COVID vaccine is working and we can begin to lose the masks that we've become accustomed to wearing for over a year now. Restrictions have been rolling back and there is talk of live concerts resuming. I have watched a few streaming online shows, but I miss the crowds. I have missed the concerts, sporting events, Pow-Wows, and the in-person gatherings. I have missed hugs and actually smiling at one another. Yea, I am willing to keep moving and see what the Universe has in store for me next.
It's a good day to be alive. Enjoy the ride.
